I noticed I wasn’t cis because I got a rush of happiness/euphoria from being called she/her by my friend after asking, and because recently I had started feeling discomfort/dysphoria towards my chest, it felt empty like something was missing and I realized it’s because I lack breasts and I wish I had them, it makes me sad that my chest is so flat.

What happens if I reject my gender, since social paragons of that gender are people like Matt Walsh and Donald Trump?

All the things I learned were masculine in the 1980s turned out to be general adulting.

Yeah that comes later. So often I would remember something from my past and would go “huh, that makes sense now”