So I thought I had figured myself till now. But I was clearly wrong…

So the last few days have been incredibly confusing as I reflected on my gender identity. I’m definitely a boy, that’s for sure. I wouldn’t want to go by any pronouns except he/him. The they/she stuff simply isn’t me.

I don’t want to dress up in a feminine manner (I don’t think I would be comfortable in skirts and thigh highs and what not…). Like… I haven’t tried that yet, but I really doubt I would be much interested in it. I like my current wardrobe.

HOWEVER, I want a feminine-ish body. Like… not boobs or anything. I find boobs quite repulsive. BUT I would definitely love to have a more feminine butt/dick. I like tucking, WHILE loving my dick.

I hate body hair/facial hair. The only place that I like hair on is my head. And while my hair is long-ish, it isn’t girl-like long. Like… the intention is not to look like a girl.

I dunno, it’s weird I suppose… Here’s one way to put it. If estrogen didn’t give me boobs, I would LOVE to take it. I would love to have a higher voice, better head-hair, and a girlier butt and dick. BUT I would still identify as a male while being in male-like clothes.

What the hell am I? I’m definitely not trans. I don’t think I’m a femboy, as I would hate doing makeup/wearing skirts n stuff. I’m so confused.

Oh, and I’m gay if that’s relevant.

  • @UraniumBlazer@lemm.eeOPEnglish
    3•3 months ago

    WOAH THAT’S A COOL MOUSTACHE!

    Yeah! I came across this study when I was doing my pre-HRT research. They’re called Selective Estrogen Receptor Modulators or SERMs.

    Seems quite promising! From what I understood, the stuff adds up theoretically and has been in use for cis women already. It’s just that experimental evidence doesn’t exist for the nb folk for this specific purpose. Considering this, I’m hopeful for something to come up in the next five years ig!

    No, you! XD

    Goddamn pawb.social furries… Always so cute…

    • @knightlyEnglish
      2•3 months ago

      Hehee, thank you so much!

      Do let us know how your gender journey goes! I’d never have had the courage to start on hormone therapy if I hadn’t stumbled across other amab enbies who blazed the trail before me, and I’m genuinely chuffed to help others find themselves in or adjacent to my rare little corner of genderspace. 😸