I GOT MY PASSPORT 🎉

I had my care team meeting today. I think it went pretty well. It was fun watching the shitshow of blame games, as well as the external people who just seemed shocked this happened at all. It looks like my org will reimburse me for the security camera and door alarms though, so that’s useful. It didn’t actually cross my mind that I could probably either make them buy it, or to just reimburse me for it later. One of my support people in the meeting was just like “so let me get this straight: you purchased cameras and alarms to keep yourself safe, with your own money, even though it’s their fault you have to worry about your safety in the first place?”

From tonight there’s no more overnight workers which means I’m on my own again. I’m not feeling unsafe or scared anymore, I feel like even if he does come back, I can handle it. But after thinking on it more, I don’t think he’s the type who would come back. I mean, he broke into my room while I was away and only did it before he moved out, even though it’s probably a logical fallacy on my part, that kind of just seems like cowardice. Plus, if he was planning on coming back, he probably would’ve by now

Made it in for a bit but was too much got out straight away:

Wasn’t the size of the waves but the power in them was impressive. Zero people walking their doggos heh.

Through to an interview with second preference job, Friday lunchtime. I’ve already done online testing with great results and submitted a five minute video. I’m hoping this is more of a formality at this point. I am a great candidate

I could wear make-up and curl my hair,
Commence my glow-up and start to care,
I’d colour myself amongst the rainbow,
But what for and why? I don’t know.

I want to be pretty like the girls on the net,
But I feel quite petty when my eyes set
Upon my face and the way it exists.
But what for and why? It just is.

Is it the web that makes me feel so bad?
All the cute girls on the street, I feel so sad.
I’m sure if I tried, I’d look like a queen,
But what for and why, so I could be seen?

I don’t crave attention, I’ll promise you that,
I like staying home with my coffee and cat,
Should I do it for me, and try to be pretty?
But what for and why? Now I sound petty.

The incoming rain looks awful.

Pray for me.

Peets on feet

Work all week. Spend weekend recovering from exhaustion. Repeat. Life not very satisfying ☹️. At least my cat naps on the bed with me.

I’m gonna go find some lamb shanks and if I don’t find them Ima gonna chuck a mini tantrum in the meat department of Coles.

woke up at one point last night on my side, knees at a 90 degree angle with a pillow in between, feet resting on the spaces between the ball and heels and fingers interlocked. Ontop of this rain was pelting the brick wall behind my head and I have to say it was the most comfortable I’ve been in a LONG time.

Back to it… Lunchnotes - theme by kidcalhoon2

Every nerve is fried. My heart is beating so fast, and the nerves in my neck twinge. I teleport around the apartment, quantum, fleeting. Electricity courses through my body in waves.

SNRI withdrawal is wild. 3/10, do not recommend. (A 3, because sometimes it feels like my brain is in freefall and it’s almost pleasant).

I’ll be fine, I have the meds now. The woes of executive dysfunction and supporting a local pharmacy that closes on Sundays. 🤦‍♀️

My one last morning volunteer shift is tomorrow, so up at 4am, off at 6am, start at 8am, finish at 12pm, should be home by 2ish-pm. Rest. Cleanup Wednesday in prep for MIL visit from Perth. Then TAFE on Thursday and Friday.

This turned into a ramble. Enjoy lol

I just accidentally replied to a work text message in all caps. Realised just as I hit send. oops. Maybe I can blame the cat.

Defs jumping in da ocean for the sunset swim tonight.

Last time it was like that was in Jan. and it was extremely humbling.

Woke up to 6, got ready for work only to realise it’s Monday and not Tuesday (my in office day). About to have a serious midday nap