How old were you when you began questioning/considering you weren’t “normal”? I’m in my 30s and almost all at once feel like I’m not sure what I am in most demensions and struggling to figure out what I feel about anything. I’ve been married, happily for a while, which adds a little to the confusion.
I grew up with you’re normal, or you’re wrong. And teaching that people just exist have have different feelings about things was indoctrination. I’ve been undoing that for years and thought I had been accepting on some level for years, but maybe it wasn’t enough til now.