Image: bingo card labeled “bad at being a person bingo”

For the sake of describing this card through a narrative, the columns from left to right will be letters A thru F, and the rows top to bottom will be numbers 1 thru 5.

Squares

1A: i don’t know wtf is going on

1B: LOOK AT ALL THE PRETTY THINGS OMG SHINY

1C: elaborate daydreams

1D: something is wrong but i don’t know what

1E: why is my backpack full of rocks and papers from a year ago

2A: puts things down; where’d it go

2B: scared of human

2C: having a body is weird wtf

2D: is suddenly really good at a particular thing for 3.2 days

2E: i’m tricking people into thinking i’m one of them

3A: am i just not trying hard enough

3B: doesn’t eat; why do i feel bad

3C: error 404 motivation not found

3D: stares at wall for an hour

3E: walks out into the snow without a winter coat

4A: “why can’t you do this?” i don’t know

4B: on second thought that was a terrible decision

4C: time goes slow and then fast

4D: walks into wall

4E: World’s Most Messy Room

5A: sorry i didn’t respond to any of your messages for six months

5B: weird sense of humor

5C: how do i tell if people like me

5D: how are other people so good at talking

5E: idk if i’m coming off as creepy all the time

Edit: I just realized that I absentmindedly relabeled the columns from BINGO to ABCDE. I like mine more anyway.

  • I'm back on my BS 🤪@lemmy.autism.placeOPMEnglish
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    4 months ago

    I am a bit pissed it was never discovered/considered. It’s not like I ever kept signs like my delayed speech acquisition in childhood, early reading/writing acquisition, daily meltdowns as a kid which morphed into internalised shame, shutdowns and depression/burnout with age a secret.

    Yep! I’m still going thru something similar. If someone ever develops a program for newly diagnosed autistics, it’s probably going to include a grief and forgiveness section, followed by learning to develop new trust in yourself and others.

    • Wxnzxn@lemmy.mlEnglish
      2·
      4 months ago

      Oh, for sure, currently doing that kind of processing solo. If my experience with going through the psychotherapy and psychiatry systems for decades has given me anything, thankfully, it’s the ability to reflect and process shit.

      Good luck for you and your path in life, too. It sucks you went to similar things, but as Sartre said: “Freedom is what we do with what is done to us.” There’s always a path forward.