• ArmokGoB@lemmy.dbzer0.com
    link
    fedilink
    English
    arrow-up
    4
    ·
    3 months ago

    I’m about at a 9, but I learned a long time ago my friends will distance themselves from me if I say anything that might imply the fact.

    • yokonzo@lemmy.world
      link
      fedilink
      English
      arrow-up
      4
      ·
      3 months ago

      Those are not your friends then. How are you feeling as of this moment? Is it bearable?

      • ArmokGoB@lemmy.dbzer0.com
        link
        fedilink
        English
        arrow-up
        4
        ·
        3 months ago

        People can only take so much drama from others before they need to distance themselves for their own wellbeing. I feel no distress or fear. Two years of an abusive relationship followed by a high dose of psychedelics burned most of my self-preservation out a year ago. I have a little under a week left unless something changes. I’m quietly getting my affairs in order.

        • Mastersmacks@reddthat.com
          link
          fedilink
          English
          arrow-up
          1
          ·
          edit-2
          3 months ago

          Well for whatever it is worth, I really hope you don’t. I always figured if I got to that point I would pack up, break contact with everyone, leave everything behind and see how things are im Canada, or maybe bum it around Europe. I just figured if everything has gone to shit, nothing’s stopping me from doing whatever I wanted

          • ArmokGoB@lemmy.dbzer0.com
            link
            fedilink
            English
            arrow-up
            1
            ·
            edit-2
            3 months ago

            I’m about to run out of money and I don’t have anywhere to go. I’m somewhere with a massive homeless population and not enough shelter. I have an autoimmune condition that will make me very sick and kill me painfully if I’m stuck out in the elements for too long. I’d rather kill myself than die slowly like that.