Had a nap from 3 to 8. But I’m still dissociating. A strange sense of doom looms over my head and has infiltrated my heart and my guts, I feel strange pangs in both.
Perhaps I’m just unwell, but when am I ever not unwell?
Also hugs. Am sending healing vibes over the ether. Is there a grounding thing you could do that might help?
hugs
Have you had enough potato today?
Did a big stuff up today, am upset due to it. Have some critical things in the next couple of weeks that will be emotionally challenging. Why is stress hard. Wish I was tougher.
Tough is keeping going. You’re plenty tough.
Big stuffups happen, it’s part of life. You got this.
you can do this 😘
I’ve had this away for about 6 months being repaired and got it back today.
It sounds so good, and feels really nice to play. It’s interesting how what you create can be completely different based on your particular guitar.
Also here’s Gibson being fluffy:
I see your fluff and raise you a fluff on a floof
a sleeping floof
Floofs bathing
Soo much floof.
My daughter’s back from her camping trip. 16 adults, kids and 4 dogs attended. She’s recounting her adventures.
Her: Oh and we played trivia
Me: Did you win?
Her: Yeah
Me: Did you whip their arses?
Her: Yeah. And one of the blokes was an ologist of some sort.
Me: Did you whip his arse?
Her: laughs Yeah
Me: That’s my girl.Years of paying her to be an impromptu quiz master has paid off.
Cool. 🫠
He doesn’t like me at all, does he
Give him the BIGGEST cuddle for me, pleeeeeease!
Parents swung round bringing the gift of potat!
Threw some in the compost down the bellarine for a while and now there are heaps. Accidental potat!
Apparently that’s about half of them.
yum
Unsent
I close my eyes and all I see is you,
A silhouette of all my nightmares coming true.
You throw your weight around on me,
Getting off on all the ways I’m suffocating.So I sink into the bed and out of my mind,
As my heart skips the beat and falls out of time.Does your girlfriend know about your three am DM to me?
Five years out from the fallout of your fuck around and find out?
She approve of you blaming me for the pain you caused me?
Does she know what you’ve done or have you spun her a new story;
A narrative that paints you plaintive in the face of great adversity,
With me standing in as the villain in your rewritten history?I’ll tear you apart from head to heart to watch you bleed,
Get on your knees and let me hear you beg and plead,
Reenact that scene, reenact that scene for me:
The one where I was begging you to set me free.
I want to see what you saw when you carved me into your pawn,
But revenge is a dish that’s best served cold and raw,
Do it again and I’ll bring you pain you’ve never felt before,
Like when you choked me out with your father’s belt on the hardwood floor.I close my eyes and all I see is you,
Standing over me, my nightmares coming true.
You throw your weight around on me,
Getting off on all the ways I’m suffocating.So I sink into the bed and out of my mind,
As my heart skips the beat and I fall out of time.Goodnight everyone, from fluffy butt and I ❤️
I wish I’d tried the doona in a box before I bought several cat trees lol
Things my former cat liked to sit on - clean laundry, dirty laundry, laptop bag, laptop keyboard, shopping bag on the floor, open suitcase, recently vacated-by-human spot on couch, a cardboard box
Things she didn’t like to sit on - fancy cat tree, any cushion or blanket put down for her to sit on
Gibson has a beautiful coat!
She’s got a lovely coat pattern. Like the swirl on a marble loaf cake
She’s also symmetrical! I don’t notice till someone here pointed it out.
The best naps are when you don’t know where you are when you wake up.
And The Void just yeeted his bowl to smithereens
I’d love it if manufacturers would stop reformulating everything.
A lot of the “new and improved” stuff is actually worse, sometimes even causing bad reactions for me. Often not only me. Whenever it happens I stop buying.
Thank you so much for this warning. I have a tendency to rosacea and if I am not careful I get rosacea in my eyes, which can lead to corneal scarring. Cetaphil was a go to. Now I’m going to check all my cupboards for any I might still have and warn young Miss Seagoon too.
A good alternative is clearasil wash, get the one without much salicylic acid.
No problem, glad to have warned you.
I’m not exactly sure when the formulation changed (to be able to check by bottle date) but I burned my face with Cetaphil at least a year ago. Complaining again because I’m revisiting my options.
I went to Neutrogena extra gentle cleanser but that’s now been changed into some foaming and creamy cleansers that I haven’t yet tried out.
Not entirely sure about the Clearasil. I still have combination skin but as I’m getting older it’s getting weirdly dehydrated so I’m trying to steer away from anything foaming to see if that helps.
Agree, I’m not able to use salicylic acid every day. If I use it it’s only once in a blue moon (because physical exfoliation is too rough) and as a drop or two of serum mixed into lotion to dilute it. (I’ll keep one bottle of a cheap brand like Beauty Glam or Kmart on hand - also good for rubbing under arms before antiperspirant.)
Other things I tried if it’s useful to anybody:
Cerave cleanser and lotion are good on my skin but you can’t buy them with your regular supermarket shop and while the lotion is lovely and hydrating it’s quite light and doesn’t have a lot of staying power so you can still get dry. Still the best known options.
The tube of Cerave cream isn’t very moisturising, feels more like a really thick barrier cream that sits as a residue on your skin.
Reviews say the same about the Cerave tubs which also contain niacinimide (can cause redness and soreness or breakouts) so I give the tubs a miss.
Ego Sunsense Daily Face SPF 50 varieties have also changed to include niacinimide so I stopped buying it. That had been a little oily/shiny but was the only high protection facial sunscreen I found that didn’t sting…
I used the Nivea SPF 15 moisturiser for many years as a teen and young adult but that recently began stinging after reformulation and then got discontinued. In hindsight I wish I had used something with higher protection.
I tend to dislike QV products in general with one exception. The foaming unscented QV wash is ok for body but stripping on face. I might use it in the shower if trying to remove sunscreen but for regular use, no.
EDIT: Also sorbolene stings and reddens my skin. This may be due to the glycerine, or the surfactant/detergent in it (as sorbolene was made to be a soap free skin cleanser). Some people may get away with using it to cleanse or remove makeup and then washing it right off but it always causes a red sore reaction for me regardless.
Current routine: After finishing the cleanser bottle I kind of cracked the shits about the price of Cerave face wash and having to go out of my way to buy it so have just been rinsing my face with water or a quick rub with very diluted Balnea sorbolene ‘soap’ in the shower… not helping the dryness but oh well. I am temporarily being broke and lazy.
I tried the Dove sensitive beauty bar on my face at the sink but it’s unexpectedly drying and can sting if I’m not careful.
I’m still using the Cerave lotion but having to top it off with an unscented body lotion to seal the hydration in (Vaseline brand) because it’s so very light.
For sunscreen I was using Olay SPF 30 Sensitive which was tolerable and not greasy but could be a bit stinging and thick to wash off.
Now I use Neutrogena SPF 15 moisturiser which is fine but nowhere near the level of sun protection I want. I keep the little pump bottle of Olay in my bag as a backup.
Listening to the rain outside. It’s so romantic.
I love the rain
the 20min nap took just 3 hours
Could have been worse.
Dogsitting Milo for the afternoon. He goes to work tomorrow, so today is all about telling him he’s a good boy
