Stalker 2.

I didnt just buy the game once, I paid for a “collectors edition” with a bunch of physical merch that I wont see until may or june. and even briefly volunteered to be a community mod. sifting through waves of hateful filth from hostile actors within the “community”. there is a LOT of Russian incited hatred against the game because of the fact the game was Ukrainian

I got incredibly hyped for the game because I had been waiting for it since the late 2000s. watched it die and come back from the dead, and it looked awesome.

the sad reality was that it needed more time in the oven, and I dont think they had a choice. I think they were forced to release it in the state that it was because they couldnt afford another year of no sales and surviving off investors and pre-orders. so what we got was like a 7/10 and it needs a lot more work.

and the political situation in their country where as many as 1/3 of the staff still live and work, is tenious by the day, they are absolutely fighting World War III over there. and some countries are trying to stab them in the back, telling them to just go surrender and get murdered…

KSP2

Can’t get it refunded now

That’s definitely a lesson

Got married. 0/10 would not recommend.

An Indigogo electric bike campaign… 10 years ago. It was a scam and I lost a lot of money. Subsequently I have built 5 e-bikes on my own and do not regret it, they are wonderful. But, no crowd-funding for me, ever again. Also, I am anti pre-ordering anything in general.

Not stuck anymore but I was for like a month. I bought Pretty Litter cause multiple drag queens I liked told me to do so. That is the worst goddamn litter I have EVER used in my life. The smell was horrendous, the dust was so so bad I actually couldn’t even be in the next room when my partner did the litter because of my allergies, and our house looked like a fucking beach. Fuck those people. (And shame on me for falling for goddamn ads)

I haven’t been hyped for anything since Godzilla Minus One came out (which more than lived up to my expectations). I do have to live with my parents buying into the hype of owning a new home. So I’ll be stuck inheriting a pile of shit that’s going to be falling apart by then instead of their old house that was rock solid.

I never fall for hype, never pre-order. life is good

Jesus, I got suckered hard by the ‘elio’ bullshit. When I was looking around for vehicles, the promise of a really affordable (lol, that should have been a clue) and gas efficient car was amazing. Plus, they already had a working car (lol, should’ve looked a little closer at those videos to see the duck tape) and were setting up their factory!

Before I gave reddit the finger, I would check in on the sub that was posting the obviously bullshit updates when they came out. There were at least a few of us who wanted to keep joking about that fucking joke.

Pretty much anything Elon Musk. I used to be an Elon Musk fangirl up until 2018, then each successive year was like the cutscene of Crash Bandicoot having all the boxes he’s missed falling on his head.

Music. Way too many albums are that one decent song you hear on the radio and 38 minutes of filler shite, and you could never take it back to the shop to get a refund for being full of shite. So all my music is pirated first, purchased second, and anyone that objects to this is basically admitting that their industry is based on selling shite that can’t be refunded.

Maybe Linux, too lazy to swap back to windows, a lot of random stuff doesnt work or is super annoying to get working, like a material library addon I use for Blender doesn’t work for linux apparently (sanctus) and makes it so I cant render with any light in the scene so its not just the menu but the materials themselves. I was hoping at least blender would work, already had to stop pirating houdini and I couldnt get the free version to work either.

All games have been fine, but I dont just game anymore, I like making stuff and playing with 3d tools.

At least embergen seems to work, so I might transition to jangafx over houdini, can buy it monthly and I spend way too much time learning houdini (its fun af) when im likely never making money off this hobby. (cant justify 300$ a year or 2500 perpetual rnow, its an insanely fun simulation toy so it honestly might be worth that, even not making money off it) Its just annoying, I’ve spent too much time learning it, my brains crammed with Houdini specific information.

Not that it was particularly hyped but I bought PS4 back in the day and just never really used it. My SO has uses it to watch netflix occasionally but that’s pretty much it. The most useless purchase I’ve ever made.

Doing a PhD. One more year and then I’m free again…

Tasmanian devil ankle tattoo.

Fuck, I know alright? It was 93 and I was barely 16

I have a Tesla that, for financial reasons, I can’t get out of for another couple few months and while it is one of my favorite cars I’ve ever driven (and I’ve driven many), I can no longer enjoy driving it because Musk is a piece of shit that deserves cancer. Looking at Lucid and Rivian now.

I also used to believe America was a great country, but in my late 20s started to realize it’s bullshit (I’m in my 40s now). It was kind of a sad realization and it has only gotten worse since then.

I also used to believe more in people and their ability for empathy and, if presented the facts, they’d ultimately make good decisions. I now believe people are generally selfish and narcissistic, and that most don’t give a shit about facts and live entirely on off-the-cuff emotion. It doesn’t stop me from caring and trying to help (some) of them, but it’s definitely made me more wary and paranoid.