Hi,
I am coming here seeking advice. I am 21, studying and am currently doing an internship. But it’s not going well. I am struggling so much with getting disctracted and watching youtube. Even though i often do want to do someting, i often don’t do anything except watch youtube. When i do actually do something it’s often not what i need to do. It’s getting really tiring and i just want to be able to do the shit i want and need to do. I often watch youtube to have some sound, but i can’t turn it off after, it is also often the same with listening to podcasts. Often when i try to improve it only works for about a week and then i fall back into my same habbits. Do many of you struggle with this, and what do you do about it?
I hear what you say and I agree with you that that shouldn’t be a Taboo. I however like myself more when unmedicated and don’t like to be dependent on them. so I think it’s better for me to try to get more into medication in the coming time but not see it as an end goal :)
I can relate to the “I like myself [way] more when unmedicated”. In my case, I realized that I am already dependant on them. Trying to get by without them is doing harm to myself in various ways.
That energy was in my case better spend on finding ways to cope with the medication. For example: if I’m going outside to see people, I might not take them. It makes it harder the next day, but slightly enough that it’s worth it.