I should be studying right now, but everytime I sit to study, I can’t sit there long enough, I want food even though I am not hungry, I want to watch TV/youtube, self-pleasure… etc…
No matter what productive work I want to do, I will try to not do that and do something which gives me momentary pleasure. I want to masturbate, eat lots of food even though I am not hungry while watching TV/Youtube and I don’t seem to be able to break the cycle and it’s destroying me. How can I break the cycle and do something good for a change instead of pleasuring myself in the moment meaninglessly?
You either had bad doctors or you didn’t communicate with them. They should have lowered your dose or switched to a different stimulant if you had ADHD, and if you didn’t, they seriously screwed up by diagnosing it as such and giving you stimulants. A good doctor would’ve listened to you and recommended therapy in combination with meds.