Then one day someone was interested, but not just that. She was also genuinely emotionally available and I knew that’s what I wanted.
Up until that point I had only been with emotionally reserved women. After a lot of consideration I figured out that that wasn’t for me any more.
But… for some unexpected reason I was overcome by fear, and I just stood there all frozen. I knew I was ready and got lucky and wanted to connect, but I was just so deeply frightened somehow. It was confusing and I gave her short answers. I felt bad for her.
I waited for her to leave. After like 15 minutes or so she finally got the message and left. I didn’t want her to leave.
It confused me and that’s when I realized it was simply because I couldn’t show my true self and my emotions.
After that I started taking it very seriously and within months my egg cracked, and I realized how sad my life would be without me.
Thanks! What’s weird is that I always considered myself to be authentic, and I received compliments along those lines too. Being human is a tricky business.
What’s also weird is that right at this moment I’m both depressed and the happiest I’ve ever been. Cuz I’m healing!
Because women liked me as a guy.
Then one day someone was interested, but not just that. She was also genuinely emotionally available and I knew that’s what I wanted.
Up until that point I had only been with emotionally reserved women. After a lot of consideration I figured out that that wasn’t for me any more.
But… for some unexpected reason I was overcome by fear, and I just stood there all frozen. I knew I was ready and got lucky and wanted to connect, but I was just so deeply frightened somehow. It was confusing and I gave her short answers. I felt bad for her.
I waited for her to leave. After like 15 minutes or so she finally got the message and left. I didn’t want her to leave.
It confused me and that’s when I realized it was simply because I couldn’t show my true self and my emotions.
After that I started taking it very seriously and within months my egg cracked, and I realized how sad my life would be without me.
Fucking mood.
So happy to hear you have not only embraced your true self but are so much happier for it ❤️
Thanks! What’s weird is that I always considered myself to be authentic, and I received compliments along those lines too. Being human is a tricky business.
What’s also weird is that right at this moment I’m both depressed and the happiest I’ve ever been. Cuz I’m healing!