I think we mean roughly the same thing. She wants revenge so badly, she wants to let it all out and kill the guy who killed her husband, and if a pig happens to get killed in the process, that’s tough luck for the pig. Maybe she doesn’t even realise that she is about to kill that pig when she tackles them. That’s how powerful her emotional state is. But when it actually happens, when she kills an innocent bystander and then sees her own eyes in the place of the murderer’s, she realises that her desire to let it all out, to blow up and kill the murderer, made her kill an innocent person as ruthlessly as the murderer.