I don’t really mean “my fault” like I’m sorry for what I am, just that I’m out of place here and not fitting into this ridiculous world of hunams (apparently I’m Spathi now so I call them that 😅 ) smoothly, easily. I like to think that I’m not sorry in the least for anything about myself that isn’t a wrong choice I’ve made, and kinda pride myself on that. No one should be sorry for existing but anyone who causes avoidable harm should seek to change. It’s a pretty simple rule that I think serves well as a kind of root, most basic kind of thing for living life: if you’re hurting someone, stop. If you’re not, then do you.

As for the bus thing, yeah, that’s the idea :3 Partly struggling with my anxiety problems but also just learning how to get around and having a chance to directly see and experience some of the city. Getting some idea of how to get around, how to get to and from places, how to use apps (mostly Google Maps <.<) to guide myself, figure out when and where and how I’m gonna have to wait for buses, how to orient myself and pick and board the right bus (as opposed to the left one, which has the same number but a different letter and goes the other way)… Making the mistakes on the way to/from Taco Bell was most definitely part of the point nodnod I really do not want to have to figure out all’ the basics en route to something important because even little oopses can totally ruin me. Anxiety’s still hellish, though :-\

Thankies!