You did everything you could in a shitty situation that you were powerless to fix; how does this weigh on your conscience?

If anything, I could see you holding on to rage that you were forced into this position. If that’s the case, then seek a psychologist who practices acceptance based therapy. It will really help you.

Regardless, I would wager none of your former teammates blame you for what happened. It’s clear from what little you have shared that you had their back the whole way.

Integrity like that is rare.