Tough though you may be, I too experienced wire coat hangers and the only relief I managed from those memories in adulthood has been EMDR. Look it up. It works.
I don’t think its toughness. Its that I didn’t care about punishment. What they going to do hit me more? Take away tv? At some point it has to stop. Just have to outlast. That doesn’t mean I purposely sort to break rules. They just defaulted to punishment so often it lost meaning to me. It was like taking a shower daily. I hated it but w/e. Now pain causes joker like laughter in me. Weird how mind adapts.
Tough though you may be, I too experienced wire coat hangers and the only relief I managed from those memories in adulthood has been EMDR. Look it up. It works.
I don’t think its toughness. Its that I didn’t care about punishment. What they going to do hit me more? Take away tv? At some point it has to stop. Just have to outlast. That doesn’t mean I purposely sort to break rules. They just defaulted to punishment so often it lost meaning to me. It was like taking a shower daily. I hated it but w/e. Now pain causes joker like laughter in me. Weird how mind adapts.
Please research EMDR. Honestly, it helped me from a very similar past.