Hiya ladies,
Today I’m trying to understand how to let go of the mean, unhappy boy I never wanted to be, and embrace the passionate, loving girlie I dream of becoming.
Before I was brave enough to accept myself I was self-isolating, over eating, and indulging in various other coping mechanisms for short term, unsustainable dopamine hits. I was also mean, anti-social, and very standoffish because I thought that’s who people expected me to be.
Now I want to be, need to be, someone completely different, letting out the parts of myself that I suppressed for so long I forgot they were even there. How did you do it? How did you unlearn those almost instinctive behaviours and defence mechanisms that keep people away and keep your real self buried and suffocating?
Thank you in advance <3
It took me a while, and that mean boy did not disappear, but I’ve made improvements towards being a better person. What I did was mind my manners and habits continuously throughout the years, I believe there is no other way.